so close, yet so far.

School is so close to being over and I am so completely done with it.

It's really a horrible feeling. I should be writing a paper right now. But i dread looking at one more sentence. At opening up a book by bonhoeffer and writing down some thoughts that i no longer care about. I made a list of all the things separating me from christmas.
It's three papers
One song
One business plan
and one exam.

It seems so easy, so attainable.. yet inside i want to scream and run away. I'm so filled with apathy it's scary because i may just say it's not worth it and walk away from all this. letting my grades suffer. Later I'll wish i tried harder, just got one more question on the test, or spend another ten minutes on that paper, but now. Now i just want to sleep.

I'm so tired and i'm really sick right now. My throat is on fire.

In other news. I'm so excited to go home. And I really do love everyone up here alot, but i can't wait to not have to think about school. And just about three weeks later i'll be like.. dang i miss my friends and school, i'm ready to go back. and i'll start up again the new term. Which works out perfectly really.

okay i shall attempt to do work now i suppose.