yep.

it's times like these where i can't do anything but thank God for his goodness. That he would never leave me or forsake me.

I feel like over the years i've been through the same thing so many times that i'm usually hesitant to really invest any time in true friendship because i know i'll just be hurt again.

Perhaps i was naive with this friendship as well. And as my heart grows hardened i find myself more and more alone. More with God, more with myself. Its probably for the better. I pray it is. Because as for now there are many things my soul longs for, and perhaps God will grant me a new friend, but at this point, even if i had one, i probably wouldn't want to open up anyways.

so i grow more and more distant. Even when i'm around others i am so fake. I smile and love others, but inside, i'm crying.

Thank you for making me a better person, for forsaking me just like the rest of the world. I can't say i didn't see it coming.

I've changed, and you didn't even take the time to let me show you.